Que sera, sera.
Katie. 21. Harry Potter. Cats. EMT.

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oparan:

Unless you want to break down crying, do not listen to this with rainymood. 
 

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Oh I forgot that
- My 19 year old cat (aka the love of my life) is dying and I can’t do anything to help her.
- My dog is slowly dying. Both of them probably won’t last another 6 months.
- My grandma has had 7 pre-cancers removed on her skin and they just keep finding more so I’m terrified of what could be lying below the skin.
- My brother doesn’t seem to care about our family anymore.

aaaand that’s all I feel like writing because it’s making me more depressed

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So I typed out like 5 pages of what is going on with me and blah blah blah blah. These are the conclusions I have come to:

- I have relapsed into another depression. This is my third (severe) episode in 4 years.

- I am incredibly lonely.

- The only person I can really talk to is my therapist.

- I am utterly lost and confused.

- I sleep all the time. I cry all the time. I am sad all the time.

- Thoughts of self harm have started to surface again.

- I miss my parents more than I ever have in my entire life.

- I fee like I am on a slow, yet progressive decline into darkness.

- I think I need to go back on meds.

- I am absolutely terrified that I am going to be nothing but a failure to myself, my family and the world.

That is all. Thanks for listening.

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Everything you love is here
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wow that is the biggest cat I have ever seen
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Mark Chadwick - Acrylic Fluid Painting 61, 2012      Paintings: Acrylics
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And, kids…
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When I first came to New York you guys were the first four friends I made. And in eight years, I haven’t needed any more. So I wanted to give you all something to thank you. I decided to write you each a poem about our friendship, and inscribe it on a piece of sea glass which you can use as a Christmas tree ornament. Then I decided that it’s super lame. So, instead… 
Robin Sparkles deleted scene (x)
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